Her eyes asked me to stay
So I did.
I lowered my gun
And my knife.
I bandaged my wrists
And turned off the engine.
Because her eyes asked me to stay.
Her eyes asked me to stay
So I put the lid on my pills.
I untied the rope
And stepped back from the edge.
Her eyes, they asked me to stay
Even though her mind didn’t know my plan.
My eyes responded that I would stay
Even as my fingers crossed behind my back
And my mind worked to find another way.
Her eyes asked me to stay
But I’ve got one foot on the earth
And the other on the tracks.
The water is rising,
The blood is pooling,
I don’t know if I have what it takes
To stay.
The scars, one indistinct from another
But each uniquely shaped, run deep.
So deep.
Her eyes asked me to stay
But I don’t think I can swim anymore.
I can’t take her down
To the depths with me.
I should cut the ties that threaten her too.
Her eyes asked me to stay
But the razor is the only way
I can feel.
Her eyes asked me to stay
But the bruises
Make me feel alive.
The water is rising,
The blood is pooling,
The air is running out.
Her eyes asked me to stay.
I feel the guilt, the shame,
The desire, the blame,
The weight of the gun,
The pull of the flame.
Am I really going to do this,
Even though her eyes will never be the same?
Here eyes asked me to stay
But my eyes are dimming.
I see no other way.
Time to take the plunge,
Pull the trigger,
Pop the pills,
Face the dark
And hope for light.
Quickly, quickly
So she won’t see.
And ask me once again
To stay.
